Well, it’s out. I whined a few posts back about how catastrophically awful I felt this taping had gone. As often is the case with me, things do not look as bad as all that. I’m actually satisfied enough with the outcome that I am putting out a link to the show, in the event you want to watch. It includes an interesting discussion about what it means to live successfully with bipolar conditions. Do we fight like hell to avoid all symptoms of mania and depression? Or can we learn to tolerate our wide ranging emotions (or could we even consider them ‘gifts’?). My little bit comes near the end. Up until that point, I just sit motionless. Like a houseplant. But once I get talking you can actually see that I am a living human being. I am so habitually constrained in my emotional expression, that as the taping was in progress, the little animation I display made me feel like I was losing it emotionally. Too passionate. Too voluble. Too much. Now I see that I look pretty normal, or possibly a bit flat in my affect. It’s a good lesson for me: maybe I could let out a lot more feeling without coming across as out-of-control, or melodramatic.
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Wellness Writer at http://bipolarwellness.blogspot.com
Will, I thinks this happens with all of us. Last year when I was depressed, I stopped blogging for two months. And then when I returned I was so disappointed that my readership numbers had diminished that I thought I would quit blogging. It seemed like it was too much effort for so little return.
So I posted about that and my readers who are friends told me to remain patient, and that my readers would find me. And so I did, and so they have.
Susan
Posted at July 26, 2009 on 4:56pm.
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Will at http://willspirit.com
Thank you, Susan. Your comment means a great deal to me.
Posted at July 26, 2009 on 5:07pm.
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Lili at http://YourWebsite
The rollercoaster is always troublesome. You manage quite well. Your readers will always be here.
Posted at October 27, 2009 on 12:36pm.
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Will at http://willspirit.com
Lili–
The odd thing is how that experience looks now, months later, compared to how things looked when I wrote the posts about the show. I felt so very awful after the program taped, but looking back I can hardly remember why.
–Will
Posted at October 30, 2009 on 8:40pm.