Dancing toward Life

Waves move all around us, rolling across oceans and breaking upon shores. They propagate through air as music and speech. They speed through rock during earthquakes. My father was a professor of wave mechanics, so I grew up knowing waves … Continue reading

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My Refuge in Reality

Anyone who has followed my writings, however sporadically, has witnessed my maturation. As I review essays written over six years, it seems clear my tone has grown less competitive, more accepting, less self-centered, and more compassionate. This budding of genuine adulthood has proceeded … Continue reading

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Unproductive, and Proud of It

As the days shorten, I’ve been working to keep my head above water. Although my spirits often feel liberated and expansive, the state of mind is unstable. My psyche is over-ballasted, and foundering comes easily. It doesn’t help to live … Continue reading

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The Art of Healing

We all enter times when mind, body, and spirit feel aligned. Today is like that for me, and I’m finding it instructive to look at what lends me peace. It comes down to this: right now I am able to … Continue reading

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Old Age: A Remedy for Early Trauma?

As many of us understand too well, adversity during childhood leads to later problems with identity, concentration, reactivity, and relationships. Yet although I’m far from the person who might have emerged had I been raised with love, in recent years … Continue reading

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THE END

If anyone has been wondering about my welfare, rest assured that I am alive and well. Now six weeks after the surgery, the incision has finally healed and my energy is returning toward normal. The procedure seems to have worked, … Continue reading

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Opening, Revisited

For years I’ve suffered abdominal pain and fatigue, which in recent months have been getting worse. The pain, at least, is traceable to a vascular anomaly near my pancreas. Surgery could correct this faulty pattern of blood flow. Since the … Continue reading

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Ahimsa

Fourteen years ago my mind broke, though I prefer to say it broke open. In my nearly five hundred WillSpirit essays, I’ve often discussed that mental shattering. As its fourteenth anniversary approaches, I find myself living the consequences in the … Continue reading

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Nirvana, Now and Then

When one travels into the depths of creation, how does one describe where one has gone? Prose will fail. But before moving to poetry, I want to write an essay about what’s happened. This will solidify my memory and share … Continue reading

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Coping. Strategies.

The first poem below might alarm. Please rest assured that it is merely my way of working through the feelings of darkness that sometimes descend upon me. I have grappled with suicidal thoughts much of my adult life and commit … Continue reading

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