Unproductive, and Proud of It

As the days shorten, I’ve been working to keep my head above water. Although my spirits often feel liberated and expansive, the state of mind is unstable. My psyche is over-ballasted, and foundering comes easily. It doesn’t help to live … Continue reading

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Opening, Revisited

For years I’ve suffered abdominal pain and fatigue, which in recent months have been getting worse. The pain, at least, is traceable to a vascular anomaly near my pancreas. Surgery could correct this faulty pattern of blood flow. Since the … Continue reading

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Nirvana, Now and Then

When one travels into the depths of creation, how does one describe where one has gone? Prose will fail. But before moving to poetry, I want to write an essay about what’s happened. This will solidify my memory and share … Continue reading

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Shades of Gray

I have a few minutes to write about black and white. One of the pillars of a successful CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy) program is to avoid ‘black and white thinking,’ which is a perennial trial for me. The ease with … Continue reading

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Pain Killer

One topic I haven’t written about, in my obsessions with child abuse and psychopharmaceutical malfeasance, is physical pain. Back in my days as a surgeon, so very long ago, my neck developed ruptured discs, bone spurs, and all manner of … Continue reading

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